The Audience I Need

I need to have an audience watching

Directly but not too direct to look me in the eye and see

Watch me sin, watch me breath

Watch me hold my tears and know that my life is heavy

Watch me break, watch me rot

In my head they all play along

I break down making sure no one is around

But they and them always see

I keep shaking my leg

My feet clenched

I break too much eye contact to the point of never making it

I realise what I am doing

I push people away from saving me

I lit the fire and imagined myself burning in it

I swallow ice storms because the flow of my rage burns my heart and lungs

Acid fails in front of my wrath to make my body ache

The tickets are free but timings vary

Sometimes it is you, or a stranger whose face I cannot escape

They are always there

Them watching my shadow give up on me