Above the clouds ☁️

I roamed the sky to feel you again

To feel your ashes flying, consumed by the sky,

Hiding in the clouds

Hoping they will carry me,

Take me to you

I was enmeshed in dust instead

Tangled in air that filled me too much

Too much to not want to breathe

The air I was drowning in held no signs of you

I feared leaving my essence there

The clouds refused to hold me

I could feel my soul pushing my bones to get out and evaporate,

Become a part of the air

I roamed the sky hours looking for you

Leaving minutes behind

The distraught kept stabbing me

Burdening me with hefty loathe

My skin ached, hurting my bones

I searched the blue that forced me to leave my shadow behind

I kept wondering,

Should I drop my empathy in the clouds?

In anticipation of the renewal of my being